Thursday, 1 October 2015

Girl crush

Is it weird to have a 'girl crush'? No seriously, i have a girl crush on someone. I'm not a lesbo. No I'm not. I dunno y..there's something about this girl that make me attracted to her. Sure enough, SHE IS ATTRACTIVE, in her own way though.
Back then i really hate this girl. (Lets call her A) Y not? She's the girlfriend of the boy who i have a crush on. She knows that i like him, and that's make her really full of herself. There's one time, they are happily dating in front of my classroom. And i swear i saw that girl smile smugly when she looked at me. Such a bitch. I hate her.
They are going out for about..2 or 3 years maybe. I don't know..
I started to like A since we both get to enter matriculation college at malacca. So called KMM.
Then i know from my bestie that A is there roomie of my old friend. And to be unfortunate enough, we get the same block and same level. Her room is also next to my bestie's room. I hate to see her walking with that heels on, i hate to see her wearing that shawl n i hate to see her walking with each different boy every time i saw her!
I get a boyfriend not long after that. So i guess that calm me down a little bit. But i still feel something whenever i saw her. There's one time, i accidentally bump into her while she's tutoring her classmate. She is what people called 'beauty with brain'. She even got 8A's in her SPM, i don't know why she end up going to KMM. How do i know her SPM result? Of course i know. I stalk her blog.lol
I started to like her because of annual dinner for our block. I was the leader for our performance, we did 'choral speaking'. I was so afraid that i have to stand in front of so many people and i don't have any confidence with my dress. I had a black skirt, black shawl, and a tight black + red blouse. A day before the annual dinner, my bestie ask me to try out our outfit with her friends. Sure enough, that try-out-our-outfit-party is held in A's room.
I put on my dress halfheartedly,showed it to all the girls in the room. A looked at me and said "your dress seems okay but you're missing something". She went to her locker, pull out a nice black cardigan and put it on me. "Now you're good to go" and smile brightly. She did have a little chit chat with me, asking me about my boyfriend and such. My bestie smile happily across the room. Looking satisfied. ceh, now I know. She wanted me to be friends with A.
Well that's that. Lesson learn. Some people might be a bitch, but there's always a good side inside them. You just need to know the well.
So now I unfriend A in FB, unfollow her ig etc..because I'm sick of it. There's a part inside me that jealous with her and trying to be her. That is so wrong. Oh well, I did end up dated her ex (who is my high-school crush) when I was in second year in university. But that is another story.
     
                                                                                                                            * MIKA*